La-la-land!!!

I have this term I use when I am in love and that term is lala-land!!! I feel all happy and out of this world and that is exactly how I feel!!! I am in-love !!!!

Love is a feeling you can't control.
I did'nt choose to fall in love with you...
it just kind of happened!!! I am so happy,
because I know you feel the same way...
I wish we could be together forever! I miss
you every second I am not with you!! I love you
honestly!!! I know you must be as excited as I am...
I need to be with you, I need to think of you, I need to see
you, talk to you and be with you!!! I deeply love you!!!
Your love I can't compare to no other!!! I wish we could be
but... only time will tell. Love you with what is left of my heart!!!
Your already a big part of me!!!!
Love you!

School is out!!!

School is over!!!! I have 3 month vacation instead of 2!!! In Puerto Rico we are all living in a crisis!!! There is no money to pay teachers or any employee who works for the government!!!
This is all a big mess I pray to God things get better!!!
Anyways, I wont get to see my friends as often as I used to thats bad for me!!!
Write l8r!!

Just another day!

Hi people!
Today wasn't an extraordinary day! I got to school feeling happy and soon enough my day turned against me. I spent today a bit mad at my friend for acting all stupid towards me, anyways today I had an oral report with my friend Sylvia we where kind of nervous (seroiusly, it was me), but it turned out fine! After that, we just waisted time talking nonesense and making fun of our friend playing pokemon!!! When the day was almost over, one of my closest friends, bursted out how sick he was/is of me and Sylvia "nagging" on him all the time, and wanting to be with him all the time! I have to admit it was a bit harsh, but thats the way he feels, later on it was too darn uncomfortable talking to him. Sylvia and I where astounded by the news but still we tried to act normal, it wasn't easy! I wanted to get up and leave and never talk to him again, but he is our friend and maybe (just maybe) he is right! Thanks God I am home no more school or friend's dilema!!! It is good to take a break from things! I am a little sad, because school is over friday, which means I am not going to get to see my friends as often!!! I'll miss them a lot though we have plans to go out on the summer hope we can actually do them! Oh well I'll write l8r, LOVE YOU ALL!!
DAISY GURL'S RULE!!!!

Take a day!!!

Hi guys!!!! Live day by day!!! And never forget that people somewhere love you just because of you!!! Love you!!!
I love ~the daisy girls~ kisses girls!!!! Oh and I am just too happy!!! God is awesome!!!! See you guys be happy and let God fil your lives... Take a day to love yourselves!!! Thinking of a spa, aren't you!!! hahaha(lol)I'll write later on!
bye!

A thing called love...

My heart is swollen...
My dreams broken...
He took me up
to bring me down...
He made me laugh,
He made me cry...
He thought he loved me,
but that was just one more
of his many confusions...
He showed me life...
But gave me death...
He offered an open door,
which he soon enough closed...
He made me belive we'd be okay,
while he always knew we wouldn't!
Why did he use me?
Why did he play those games?
Why did he make me say all the things I felt?
Why didn't I notice this?
Why was I so darn stupid?
Why did I ever let myself do such a stupid thing?
What did I get out of this, a broken heart?
Why did you do this to me?
Why didn't you think of me, my feelings?
Why, oh why did you hurt me in this way?

"LOVE is only a four letter word...if it really does mean something..then why do some people take it for granted and not mean it?..and if the word LOVE is real..then why can some people say it every other person they meet?"~taken out of an anonymous, written for a friend~
" The ironic thing is I feel the very same way"...

Losing touch...

Sitting, in a hospital, waiting to hear the doctor's news. Bitting my nails, woundering what was going on! I hear a scream, a terrorizing scream! More tension was built inside me!
Where is he, where is he I yelled at the nurse who was passing by- Calm down, she said with a firm voice! I was scared, I was anxious, I was desperate!!! I waited and waited and still no news.
Is he dead? I asked myself!
What is going on in there! I felt like running towards the door and going in to where he laid.
He is the man I love, I answered when the doctor asked for a family member. I am sorry miss you are not a relative, he exclamed! I was devastaded, I tried to persuade him until he said I could go in. When I finally get granted the wish to go see him, I waited out side, took a deep breath and softly opened the door. There he was, laying there, stiff, not moving any muscle! I stood by his side, and soon I bursted out in tears, could it be? Could he really be dead! I rapidly demanded to know. To know why he didn't love me? why he lied? why he cheated? I was furious, but no matter how strong I felt and wanted to kill him, another part of me loved him so... Not knowing what to do! I started to talk to him I told him everything I felt how much I loved him and how much I wanted him to be okay. He is in coma, replied the nurse, she told me that everything would be alright. WAIT, WHAT IS THAT!!!! Why is he jumping whats going on, is he gonna die? why was he there? What happened to him? Get out!!!- The doctor shouted, I was nervous So nervous that I couldn't move!!! The dragged me out of the room I was desperate was I going to lose him? I was so uncontrolable that they took me away...
Where was I going I couldn't see anything! All was dark, I could only hear a vague voice, that said; I love you ... It's time... Hold my hand... Be mine...
What I didn't recognize the voice whose was it! Oh no I can't breathe, I am losing my senses...
Get me out of here ! I yelled what's wrong Can't anybody hear me...

Straight ahead!!

I am in this road, I find myself wondering wich way to go...
I don't know but my life has been taking different turns in which I find myself lost!
I think I know which things are good for me and which are not, but I seem to keep bumping with the same rock in the middle of the road! I am not making any sense I know, but how else do I describe the journey my life is taking me... It is hard for me to accept that I am stuck!! It's like my life has found its' limite, the end of the road, and I can't walk anymore! I am so confused!!! It seems both ways at the end of the road are closed for me... What am I to do?
It is a dark road I walk... Sometimes I think I can see light but it is only an illusion!! I am tired and thirsty this road has gotten the best of me. No matter what I keep walking to find myself still in the same spot. I stumble and I fall, that's when I see the exit, but as soon as I get up it all fades away...

About a boy!

I know I came to you when everything is/was wrong and a mess!!!
I still know I want to be a part of you I want to be that force which sets things right...
I know I don't have super powers to change what is going on... but I want to try and make you happy. All these feeling inside burn, like crazy. I wish I could go right there where you are and love you like I use to and still do. I love you with all my heart, I know it's too late... Please don't tell me you don't love me anymore... Give me a chance to show you how much I care!
When I close my eyes the first picture I have is yours, I want to leave all behind and run away with you...
Just to feel you close for the very last time!!! I wish I could explain myself better, but if I could just look at you, you would know what my heart wants to tell you...

The roller coaster ride!!!!

Jajaja! Really pathetic of me, I haven't been anywhere yet!
I named this post the roller coaster ride, because this is actually the way I am feeling!
I feel like I am in a roller coaster, because sometimes I am up and some down, and needless to say all those turns I take! Today I am feeling neutral, there hasn't been any great impact! I am alone withmy mother, which isn't technically bad, but it's not fun! I miss going out and I wish I could go out right now! I had a desperating dream last night!!! That's why I woke up feeling funny today! Anyways I have nothing to write about so, I'll write l8r on!

Swimming in deep waters!

Hi people I am glad that today is Friday, today we start our spring break over here in Puerto Rico!!! YAY!!!
Anyways today was a so/so day! I spend most of my time with one of my greatest friends Sylvia and the rest of the time I spent with Walter a new friend of mine! I was feeling great all day long, until 1:50pm came, then I started to feel desperate and I wanted to leave, I had plans to go shoe shopping with Stephanie, but she had to cancel and that's when it hit me, I wanted to leave school right then! I had to wait till 3:00pm to leave and I was growing sick of school I just wanted to have fun and spend some time with Stephanie, but we couldn't do anything about it. She had to stay in school to help her boyfriend out in some school assigment! Today I got really moody, after missing my friend Spiderman, when he finally sat next to me and Sylvia after a while I didn't want to be by his side!!! It wasn't his fault and he did nothing to me, for me to react that way, but I felt angry and disappointed with myself! After I had "vanished" all my feelings to a certain guy... They came over me today, it came back to me! but I've learned something about this, I know how to live with them, without them taking control of me!!! Anyways I took it out on my friend, I am sorry sweety, I love you!!!! Anyways I hope this few days off help me in some way!

Another day in school!

Hi people right about now I am in school in my Chemistry class !!! Suposively working!!! lol
I am enjoying myself for now. Next to me is my best friend Sylvia and she is also "working" (jajaja)! I have so many things to do but still I am here procrastinating! I love you people! Have a nice day!
take care talk 2 you later!

A horrible day!

Today was a fine day until a friend of mine was hurting!
Problems take control of our lives! Which I find that it is unfair!
Can we live without any emotions? Why is it so hard for us human beings to deal with our emotions? I know it can be hard, I've been through hard time in which I hav thought I was going to die, but still I've made it through! Is it harder on other people? What is there to do?
I know I don't know everything, much less I understand everything, I just wish us people wouldn't make such a big deal out of our emotions! I speak for myself and only of myself! I wish I had the power to stop the hurting in this world... I know it is just a dream, but it sound pretty nice! Feelings aren't everything in this world and believe it or not everyone will get over all the suffering, someday... Look at the positive things God sends us, and you will survive!

I... can ... breath...again!

I made it, I made it, I made it!!!! that's what I said.
I have walked so much and fought so hard to get where I am...
I have reached the top of the mountain!!!
That is what I though, I take myself back to these last days, where I have cried, laugh and yelled. And it all seems worth it! I know it sounds weird but I finally got where I wanted to be, on top! I know life gives you situations, but I am glad I can say I MADE IT THROUGH!
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What if it's a ilusion? what if I am not really there? What if this is the way my mind uses to make a fool out of me?Can I be a houndred percent certain of this? I surely can not! I wish I had fallen a sleep and woken up to a new and bright morning... Is it too much to ask?

That's an abstract of something I wrote!
* When life gives you lemons, make a lemonade!*

A new point of view!

Yesterday I was feeling very bad (emotionaly), but I decided I was going to church anyways!
I got there and I felt the same, but when the preacher began his sermon I felt God's precense in my life. I decided to ask God to forgive me and start living my life how he wants me to! I think that's the best decision I have ever taken! Now all I feel is joy, no more sadness, no more depresion, just happyness and joy! I love God so much! He is the best an he is always there when you need him, 24/7! God bless you all!