Everything is brand new...

People tend to think that when something is done with you should move on ...
Thats why I chose this title, everything new. Look its been a couple of months since my break-up and everything is running smoothely, needless to say that I did care strongly about him and he will never leave my heart or life. But things have changed hugely, now I don't feel this pressure to be with someone else, I really would like to be by myself for now. BOYFRIEND, is a huge word that not everyone can fufill after my last one. I've come to realize that I am not as ready as I thought to be in a serious relationship with someone else. You have to be so devoted to that other person and stuff... I don't want the same things I once wanted, now everything is new! My priorities are so different now... it is God,friends & family, and school. I don't have time for dilemas or anything else. I love my friends to death!!! Love you all...

I'm not bitter...I'm mad as hell!!!

Today was a good day or so I thought, (stupid me) nothing could ruin my day, but I was wrong. How can a simple e-mail damage an entire day of happiness? It is possible,and it did. I got home to check my e-mails and I got only 1 the worst one I have ever gotten, it was from someone I used to care a lot for. I was so shocked by the title, I had to read it, when I started to read it, I began to feel so disgusted and furious, I felt so overwhelmed by anger. Worst than all was that this person that I thought I knew well thinks so bad about me. I am sooo sorry for ever giving this person any reason to think that way about me (if I ever did). I just want to tell that person if he/she ever reads this blog is, too bad you think that I would ever do something bad to you, I promise you I wouldn't , but it's a fact now that I don't want to hear about you, at least not for the moment! Know for a fact that I do forgive you for doubting me, I really do, I don't want to hear about you because it hurts to much to know that a friend so close like you doubts me. I will get over this, sooner or later...
I know that tomorrow I might not feel bad about this problem, but this is going to scar me. I'm not bitter...I'm mad as hell !!!!

A quote for the day!

"No one can ever make you feel less than what you are, unless you let them."

Don't ever give that kind of power to anyone!

and a romantic one to top it off!

" You've made me realize that I've always been missing something I never ever knew I wanted"

Isn't that sweet!!!

Reality check!

Saturday, Febuary 18,2006

What kind of thing do we girls think?

I was talking to a very good friend of mine and we stated a sprited conversation (discussion) about girls always getting which ever guy the wanted... I was furious because I really think we can't always get the guy we want, and if we could why would we be alone sometimes? Anyhow later on, in the conversation he admited that we can't always get the one we want but sometimes we can! I wish that were true because I really like this guy and he doesn't seem to see me that same way, he does think I m awesome and everything, but I am like one of the guys for him. Which is totally bumer, I don't quite know because I am sure I don't want to be committed in a relationship, but I would like to see if we could get to know each other better. So maybe we can't always get the guy we want but we can always try! So if anyone is going through the same awkward feeling I am going through I just have to tell you one thing don't give up, try your best and if you don't secceed you'll still have a great friend anyways! So risk a little, go for it! At least thats what I tell myself!!! l8r everyone...

Valentine's madness!

Yesterday was a pretty nice day, I thought it would be this horrible painful day but it wasn't! I had lots of fun! My friends gave me pretty sweet gifts; I got a stuffed animal, chocolate, flowers and candy!!! I really wasn't expecting any of that but it was really nice! Thank you guys! I hope everyone of you had a great day as well! bye till next time...

Its what I call growing up!

Whoa! I haven't posted in a long while now! Hello every one!
My life has been pretty sweet until this week! Man this week sucks...
Anyhow talking about the subject, even though this week hasn't been the best one ever I have learned some "neat" stuff. Somethings that I instsit were meant for me to get over with, to mature. Want to know something? Life is like a class we have to take, we have many quizes to go through before taking the test. It is funny what I go through and worry about when there are so many other people with huge problems. This week, okay the few days I have past this week, were horrible to me, I felt so powerless in many situations I've gone through. This week I told this guy I was getting to know that I had a crush on him, oops big mistake, he was very sweet and sincere about it , he told me he didn't feel the same way, we are still good friends though. I also found out a friend I really looked up to, abandoned herself and decided to throw away all her dreams and goals in life. I also heard from Juan this week, that was kind of a positive thing this week! I've been drowned with lots of school work and projects. Seriously this hasn't been a great week as I thought it would be, but no matter what I am not going to let all of that destroy my positive way of seen whats in front of me! Oh by the way Valentine's is coming and I rather it wouln't ... too many happy couples just makingit worst for all of us who are not in a relationship. There's a good thing in there I will get to share my love with my friends who don't ever forget about me...