The sound of your voice...

The sound of your voice through the telephone brought back so many memories. The good ones of course! Such great times the ones we lived those few months. Just staring at your eyes would unchain the things you felt inside. The sound of your voice so soft and mellow brought back the feelings I once felt for thee. It reminded me of the way you use to gently caress my skin and my whole body would just tremble with the contact of your smooth hands. The hours we use to spend looking at each other and listening to each others voices. All those unsteady feeling I would get inside of me just waiting for me to shout how much I trully love you. It also brought to my mind those 2nights; the one we both laid on my balcony and admire the sky, looking at those bright stars. The weather was so perfect too. But it also reminded me of that last night together, the one we spent hours talking to each other separated because of the gate. That night when I felt my whole life broke down into small pieces. That night when we said our goodbye's and didnt understand why. That night when you said that you wouldnt try convincing me. Oh that night when I really wanted you to say you wouldnt leave and that you wouldnt agree on loosing me. I wanted that inner part of you to take control, but we didnt, you didnt, rather, you cohibited yourself and let your pride hold you back from doing what you wanted. If I would have acted instead of renouncing to you. The sound of your voice brought freedom to my thoughts and memories. The sound of your voice brought back my love. The sound of your voice brought FREEDOM, LOVE & HOPE...

His name is Jesus...

I am in love! with some one who has never ever left me, and I have been so mean sometime but he is still there . He shows his mercy upon me and that is why I am so crazy about him! No one in this world can ever make me feel the way he does. With his love tenderness and forgiveness he has captivated me, I don't want absolutely anything else but his love for ever and ever he is my true love. His name is God! Jesus Christ our Lord! The best thing that has ever happend to mankind and me of course! God bless you all!

What to expect?!?!?

I don't know what to think anymore! I am tired of doing things the right way, right now I am feeling very sad, a very deep pain in my heart, I don't want to do anything 'bout it. I totally gave up! I am moving on, it hurts but I'll get through it... Or so I hope! With the help of my friends , family and anyone else who offers his or her help I will be ok once again. I know I am strong. I hadn't cried in a long while, I am so pathetic. I just have to have character and faith that someday I will get over him and nothing else will matter anymore. So deffinitely bye Juan, please if you read this don't call and please don't try contacting me anymore, in any way... I just don't want to know 'bout you for the moment.

SHOCKED!

There are so many things that there just not the same anymore...

Isn't it hard enough?

The human being is always in a constant change. We change the way we dress, look, act, the music we hear, the way we think, and the things we believe. No matter how much the world changes (and I do mean us as well) we humans still don't get use to some types of changes. For example death, we all know we are going to die someday, but when that day come (to a family member, friend ,etc.) it is hard for us to adjust. I think that when it come to love we are basically the same way. For example I'll be using myself, I love many people ( my parents,friends,etc.), but when it comes for me to have a partner(boyfriend), when things suddenly change, their effects seem to affect me the most. I know you are all tired'cuz of da same.am just so amazed in the way I have reacted to these changes in my life. It's hard to admit but I haven't gotten over my last relationship. I had actually developed a strong sense of love and even though we are not together I still feel like he is a great part of my life. Now my love for him has changed or it has evolved. Not in a bad way, but now it is just not the same, even though I still care about him I feel so much different now. This change has made me appreciate him so much more that what I use to, but now it is just too late, and I am not expecting to go back together, but this has tought me such a very valuable lesson. I didn't take him for granted, but now becuz of him physical and spiritual absence of him in my life I feel such a deep need for him. I know I ended up making no sense but what to say I quite don't make any sense at all.

Confused?

HI,
I am super confused! This is a hard decision to make, not that there is anyone asking me to decide anything, but I feel I have to. Anyhow I know that no one sees this blog so I actually feel like I can be honest with myself and think stuff throughly. Well back to the decision I have to make, I love someone, that someone is my ex (Juan), nothing out of the blue, but there is nothing I can do. I wish I could be with him once again but it is obvious we are not going back, not because either of us did something very bad, just because we live many miles away from each other. Even though he might not accept it, he was a great boyfriend! Back to the problem, I am not ready to move on but I know I should 'cause if there is no posible way of us two ever getting back together, the correct thing to do is to stop obsesing over him and try to mantain a normal life without him. That sounds so mean and evil, 'cause I know he loves me to. The decision I should probably take is the most obvious one! But its so hard when you really love a person to let go as if nothing ever happend. I know there are many people ahead and that he isn't the only man on this world. So... what to do when you really love someone! As that famous saying, says " when you love something you should set it free if it comes back it means it was yours but if it doesnt it means it never was". I think that is what I have to do, I know he wont understand me, and that he might get mad and chose never to talk to me, but I know in my heart this is the right way to go! see you on the finish line, I hope...

Thanksgiving is on the way!!!

Hey you all,
Tomorrow is thanksgiving and I have so much to give thanks for. Here are a few;
for my health, for my family,for my wounderful friends that never leave me, for my life, for my studies, for the love of my life, for everything I have, own, etc. I love this time of the year, its eating turkey almost the whole month! lol! OOH I almost forgot, I am thankful because my aunt gave birth yesterday and she is ok and the the baby is ok as well. Don't you just love giving thanks? we should do it everyday! Well guys have a very Happy Thanksgiving! Love you all!!!

Not again!

Hello...
Today was such a dull day!!!
Today we celebrated, what we call the turkey race! It was lame, but at least I got to see the guy I kind of like run!!! Anyways, the day got better as it went by, my homeroom teacher prepared a delicious lunch for all of us and soon my classmates and I started to play some games and others danced the lunch period away. At least it had some fun involved!lol. My friends thought it would be fun to torture me by telling the guy I like that I am interested in him, well the funny for them but not for me part of the story, is they called him so I could talk to him and I completely made a fool of myself I tripped and fell flat on my face!! Humiliating, I know! So now I have less probabilities to actually getting to know him. In the other hand, I am glad, cause I ain't over my ex-boyfriend yet! till next time...

HI

Today was a very interesting day...
My dad and I went for a drive and later on we stopped for some food! I drove all the way back to my house. I was so excited, cause my dad is teaching me how to drive! Anyways, yesterday was a very hectic day for me! Cause my friends and I are planning a Christmas party at my house! Yesterday my friends and I went shopping for the decoration, it was fun but at the same time very exhausting! Thats all for know, I'll tell you guys how the party turned out and I'll add some pictures as well.