Ensueño

Yasen cuatro meses desde su aparición trayendo consigo ilusiones, pasiones y nuevas fuerzas. Estaba en mi alcoba cuando sentí una corriente recorrer mi cuerpo entero. Era una desenfrenada pasión que a mi cuerpo amedrentaba. Desidí arroparme de pies a cabeza y en un instante un profundo sueño vino a mi. Era la navidad de hace años cortos atrás, había llegado mi invitado de un lugar no muy lejano, trajo cionsigo un presente y ganas de revivir lo antes vivido. Me acuerdo como si fuera ayer los hermosos recuerdos que mi invitado y yo vivimos, pero eran solo eso, recuerdos. De repente una llamada interrumpió mi sueño y entré en una realidad tan dulce que no quería que terminara. Era una voz del presente que provocó en mi una nueva sensación. Nunca antes vivida, ¿sería amor? No creo que lo fuera pero si era una emoción única. De ahí supe que en el prodría mezclar la realidad con el ensueño.

Caricias

Me tocó y lo toqué. Me besó y le pegué. Era de esperarse- ¿Quién crees que soy? Yo soy la sombra que acaricia tu cuerpo todas las noches que lloras sin el. ¿Comó sabes que lloro por el? Tus ojos lo gritan y tu boca tambien. ¿Acaso crees que necesito de el? Solo al tocarte se te eriza la piel. Solo al mirarte vuelves a el, cada respiro es para el. Pero no ya no lo quiero a el, ahora tengo un ser que acaricia mi alma con tienas caricias. Caricias de amor y compasión. Lo siento en mi y lo amo. Ese soy yo que te he amado desde que te ví llorar por el.

Sepultado

Lloviendo está. Zapatos mojados, trajes enchalcados. El Pastor se alista para empezar la ceremonia. ¿Que celebramos? Se preguntaba el niño que estaba allí. Un velorio le contesto la madre. Mujeres lloraban y los hombres las consolaban. Mientras otros cantaban himnos al Señor. Todos parecian estar en un mismo sentir, o llorando o cantando pero todos estaban unidos. De repente llega la viuda, llena de paz y serenidad. Entró a la carpa donde todos estaban reunidos. Ella parecía estar tranquila, parecía esperar este día con ansias. Su marido había muerto y ella como si nada. Entró vestida de Rojo con un enorme sombrero Blanco. Todos la miraban con caras de asombro. Ella se despidió del cadáver y se dirigió hacia el auto, donde la esperaba un caballero muy misterioso. Este hombre era muy serio y llevaba un papel en la mano. Que extrañas personas, dijo el niño. Sí, contesto la madre. Que triste debe ser morir sin ser amado. ¿Sabía alguien a donde se dirigía la mujer y el caballero? Luego de terminado el velorio todos se marcharon de esa temible montaña. A lo lejos se oyó un grito y un sombrero que volaba.

¿Lista?

Era de madrugada y Jazmin ya se había levantado. -Que cansada estoy pero hay que tomar una decision. Se levanto de la cama y rápidamente buscó su maleta. -Saldré de aquí y me iré para el Este. Ella sabía lo que le esperaba, estaba muy clara de lo que quería. Bajo las escaleras de su departamento y en la puerta principal una carta la esperaba. ¡Una carta, pero que carta! Se miro de abajo hacía arriba y se reviro. Subío las escaleras como confundida. Abrío la puerta, dejo la maleta en el armario y se sento. No lo podía creer era el... El hombre que conocío la semana antes. La carta decía ¿Estas segura? Y ella se preguntó ¿estoy Lista?

Amar es olvidar

"Que triste tu partida", decía el cantante en su canción. "Que hermosa tu llegada," seguia la canción. Desperté en un cuarto obscuro, los colores en las paredes eran depresivos. Solo había una cama y una mesita, en esa mesita un lápiz y un papel. Sola me encontraba cuando oí una voz fuerte como de hombre que decía, "arreglate que hoy te casas." ¿Con quien, me preguntaba? ¿A que hora? ¿Por qué no sabía quien era? Me levanté de la cama asorada, recogí mi ropa y trate de saltar por la ventana. La ventana estaba atorada, entonces me entró la ansiedad. Escuché pasos cerca de mi puerta, forcejé la ventana pero aun no cedía. Me escondí debajo de la cama, el hombre entró. Era un hombre de hermoso parecer, alto, de ojos color miel. Me llamó por mi nombre y me sentí segura, aun no conocía a ese hombre, pero el me tomó en sus brazos y me dijo que me amaba. Hice un esfuerzo por recordar quien era, pero todo fue en vano. El me pregunto, " ¿Acaso no te quieres casar conmigo?'' Lo mire a los ojos profundamente, como tratando de ver en su mirada quien era, pero no lo reconocí. No respondí a su pregunta. Me sentía tan estupida, éste hombre me ama me dije. De repente sentí el soplar del viento sobre mi cabello. ¿ Pero por donde entró? La ventana estaba cerrada. Ese viento se sintió y pude recordar. Un hombre, un amor, una caricia, un beso, un consejo, un abrazo, una palmada en la espalda, una pelea y una cara. Esa cara no era de ese hermoso hombre que se iba a casar conmigo. ¿Por qué? Quiero amar a éste hombre y lo amaré aunque no me acuerde de el, pense. Volví a mirarlo y de mi boca salió un "Dame tiempo para amarte". De sus ojos salia una lagrima que recorría sus mejillas. Lo besé tiernamente y supe que el me amaría por siempre.

Eres

Eres fuego ardiente que cuando estas cerca no quemas, mas si estas lejos derrites hasta el marmol de mi ser.
~miky~

Levantate.

Llueve, truena y relampaguea... Son las 12:00am. Es de madrugada. No se ve mas que el reflejo de mi rosto en lagrimas. Corro sin cesar, se que es una tormenta, pero alguien me puede socorrer. No veo nada, la lluvia a cegado mis ojos y no veo a donde voy. Siento la ropa empapada y los zapatos ya no están, mi ropa ya desgastada no da para mas. Trato de correr pero la respiración no me da para eso. Veo una casa maltrecha y abandonada en el medio de este Sahara. No encuentro como correr; de pronto tengo fuerzas para llegar y tocar a la puerta. ¡Toc! ¡Toc! ¡Toc! Nadie responde. De mi cuerpo malherido sale un grito de horror y con las fuerzas que no tengo logro decir un ¡Auxilio, que alguien me ayude! Pero, nada, nadie sale de esta horrible casa. Dentro de ésta se ve una luz, una luz que no da para iluminar ni un cuarto, pero veo signos de vida en ese hogar (Si se le puede llamar de ese modo). Era un hombre que vivia en estas condiciones, me abrio la puerta a medias mientras preguntaba quien era. Le dije, " Soy, soy,soy La muerte" Este hombre me cerró la puerta en la cara y me dijo "ven otro día, que aun no me preparo". Me enfade pero no puede sostenerme. El con lastima en sus ojos me dejó entrar y me preguntó, ¿Por qué te dices llamar la muerte? Le conteste " porque eso es lo que estoy a punto de emprender". Me miró con ojos de pena mientras me decía que me levantase, que una nueva vida me esperaba. Lo miré con éstos ojos que más grandes no se pudieron poner y me levanté. Este hombre había sido tan generoso conmigo me había permitido etrar, pero, lo odie como solo se odia al enemigo en batalla. Me marche de ahí con toda y rabia, pero este hombre me acompañó hasta donde estaba este señor. El viejo se fué y en mí solo nació el querer, luego de haberse marchado, este señor me tomó en sus brazos y me llevó a un lugar seguro. Son las 6:00am, ya ha dejado de llover, de tronar y relampaguear... Me siento fría, no siento mi cuerpo, la sangre ya no corre por mi cuerpo, ni por mi mente el pensamiento. Son las 6:00am y ya no estoy...

¿Me amaras mañana?

Es una tarde fría y nublada, ha sido un día muy largo y me espera una noche igual a cualquier otra... Salgo del afán del día y me monto en lo que llamare mi escape de la cotidianidad. Subo a mi cuatro puerta y un motor y de pronto entra a mi aparato orejil una llamada no esperada. Era un espíritu pasado que volvía a rodearme... Me estremecí, dentro de mí surgió un espanto un miedo. Estática en mi auto me dirigía en direción a mi aposento ¿por que había vuelto? ¿Qué quería? ¿Qué debía hacer? Al rato de haber cortado con la conección decidí ignorar lo ocurrido, mas no pude. Contemplando en mi aposento lo ocurrido, volvieron surgir antiguas angustias y pesares. Mi fasinación por mis angustias empezaron a crecer, a crecer, a crecer... Incognitas de este fantasma acerca de su pasado de su presente y su porvenir me angustiaban sin cesar pero, a la vez llenaban mi ser de una extraña satisfacción. ¿Porqué me atormentaba?¿Porqué deseaba que volviera? Este ser había desaparecido para siempre en la oscura neblina de la noche, con un beso frío se despidió de mi ser para nunca volver. Muerte, dolor, ausencia cubrió su recuerdo. Noche que nunca olvidaré es la noche que recibí esa llamada que conectaba dos almas heridas y una historia olvidada... Pude revivir la sensación seca que quedo en mi la noche de su muerte, el era para mi lo más valioso de la mortalidad. Abrí su ataud y el olor era espantoso y elevaba mi alma a la suya, nada había en esa caja, solo vanos recuerdos de su existencia; luego entendí que el me amó de forma única. Pude sentirme amada una vez más pero en mi quedo la duda... ¿Me amaras mañana?

Progress Reports !!!

Tomorrow my teachers will be handing out my progress reports! Hope my grades are good!!!!! I'll post later!
~miky~

Just my luck!

Hello everyone! Just writting to let each one of you know that am alright! Life is pretty darn sweet! I am loving my senior year even though it is hard work! I am enjoying most of this time with my new friends! Hope eveyone is alright! Juan dude call me! Miss you lots! Spiderman I love you, and u can't deny u love me 2! hahaha! See u people!
much love!
~miky~

Too young to...

Tonight I find myself laying on top of my bed trying to fall a sleep. As I lie on my bed I open my eyes and stare at my roof, as my mind flies to my deepest thoughts... I start to think and think and think some more! I ask myself the reason of my sleepless night. I can't seem to find the answer to my question, rather I find myself asking myself other questions! Was I too young to do certain things in my life? Was I too young to fall in love? Now a days I find myself with a certain degree of lack of commitment! I can't seem to get my feelings straight! I know I am not in love with anyone right about now, but there is some attraction to a younger guy! He is great and as always good guys are either gay, married or committed! This guy is taken! He has girlfriend. Leaving that a side, I couldn't get some sleep! It was hard to get my mind of him or anyone for that matter! It was almost impossible to get some rest I had to go through many things to get to sleep! I finally went to sleep after all of those inconveniences I got to sleep for a while, now there is only that doubt. Am I or am I not to young to...

Can it be?

Life is a box full of surprises! Surprises can either be good or bad. Tonight I am here asking myself : What kind of surprises does life hold in for me? I am going through a stage in life where I question myself what does every little thing mean. I have found myself questioning my decisions, many of them. Can it be that finding a person that respects me isn't what I wanted? I mean no one has actually disrespected me to my face, but with action you also disrespect people. I have found someone who really cares about me and would give the world to see and make me happy, but I find myself doubting over wether not I want this for my life. My last boyfriend and I ended pretty bad to the extend that we barely speak to each other! The thing was I found out many things about him that I didn't want to believe but did anyhow! Now he and I can't even consider ourselves to be good friends because that trust I once deposit over him is long gone! Still I find myself missing that whole drama and heart-ache. Is it that I trully want to be with him? I know that I don't want to be with him. I found someone who appreciates me and wouldn't hurt me, but I am still not content! What could it be? Have I not learn to respect myself and that's why I don't quite get use to it coming from another human being? Is it that past relationships have made me who I am? I have this concern in my life I wish to calm. Even though I found this special someone I am not in love, could it be that I am afraid to love once more? So many question are born in my head and I just can't answer! As I started saying : "Life is a box full of surprises " I just wish to appreciae more the blessing that I have than to lose a great person like that. I know I won't get to be with him because I've made a decision and I am not planning on backing out. Have we lost our self-respect? Have we lost who we are? Have we traded our morals and believes? Have we hurt ourselves? I soon wish to see... the answer to all of this.

School started!

Wow big news... School started!
School was pretty fun today, wellif you took away the hotness! It was awfully hot today and a matter of fact it is going to be like that for a long time! Snap! Anyways I got to see all well most of my friends that was very fun! I got to see my classmates and my other friends that graduated already. I am happy with what I lived today in school which school would be better!
Well I'll write later cuz I am tired!

Awesome night!

Ohhh I am so glad I went to church last night! My church was invited to this other church in Dorado, a friend of mine invited us. The preacher was really inspired and touched by the Holy Ghost! The verse he used for the sermon was the following: Romans 12:11-12. That night was full of blessings! God is awesome! I just love him so much, he is the love of my life, my Savior, my steady rock, he is never late, he is always there when there is no one to turn to. He is simply amayzing!!!! God is love!
~miky~

I know that I know nothing at all!

Hi!!!! Today I got some really good news! I am getting a job interview pretty soon!!! I might get a job!!! yay!! Anyhow I haven't heard anything from anyone! Yeyo is leaving tomorrow and today is his go away party!!! The only bad thing is I can't go because Stephanie can't go!!! One thing I know for sure is that they are planning on coming over to my house to say goodbye! Isn't goodbye such an ugly word???? I rather say "SEE YOU LATER!!!" It sounds prettier and it gives me hope! Very little days are missing ti'll school starts! I am going to see all of my classmates and all the new classmates I am going to have this year! It's is exciting but at the same time nerve-racking! Hopefully I'll be able to handle school and a job at the same time! God is LOVE!!!!
~miky~

School is starting pretty soon

Hello it is the 7th of August and I haven't done much.
As I once wrote I had to participate in a competition this past Saturday, news flash I WON FIRST PLACE!!!! yay!!! In other news school starts this Monday! I am gonna see all of my friends and get to spend my last year with people I care about. I am looking foward to making new friends and keeping my old ones! I really hope to get good grades again so I can be in the principles honor roll! That's kindda my goal! I am so very happy with the way my life is going right now! I am happy most of the time! Not having to worry about kiddie problems etc. My dad came back from France this past Saturday he couldn't make it to my competitions but he made it in just in time for my gift (lol) I got some pretty nice earings from France!!!! Yay! I miss some people alot, yesterday I didn't hear about Chu or Rafa or anyone for that matter! I couldn't sleep that well yesterday and I just kept staring at my celphone expecting some sort off call but it wasn't from just anyone, it was from someone who mean a way lot to me and even though I knew it wasn't gonna happen deep down I wanted that person to call. As I said that person didn't call but whatever I am still living and breathing. Soon enough life is gonna start getting hectic with all the school work and friend drama! Hope it's not as I think it's gonna be! Anyways I am a whole mess writting this so I'll write later on! bye
~miky~

Today was such a good day!!! My cousins are staying with me this week and today we went shopping and I saw Chu and Yeyo!!! We bought stuff and went to see My super Ex-girlfriend it's hott you've got 2 see it! Anyhow we ended our day eating at Johny Rockets it was good though the service was medeocre! Anyhow now I am leaving or church! A little desappointed because I have these competitions on Saturday and I haven't had time to practice yet!~ Wtite back l8r

Serious Talk.

Yesterday was a nice day for me, I finished buying my school material and at night I went to church with Chu! Afterwards we went to catch a bite at Mc Donalds, there we found another friend of ours, Irvin, it was cool! I need to seriously talk to one of my friends! I am so worried! Till then what the heck can I do?????
~miky~

The way he treats me!!!

I feel like a princess!!!! Maybe better... He treats me as if I was the prettiest girl in the universe, he makes me feel good about myself. He brings the best out of me!! He has been of great support to me these days. He is so fun and easy going, great to hang out with and to have a serious conversation with! He is a new friend of mine! He is not like every other friend I have or had, he doesn't look alike and he sure doesn't treat me like them either, not that I haven't had friends who treat me right but he has been so nice, sweet and I don't know but we have so much in common! Of course we also have differences but we enjoy similar things! I am happy I found this new friend, MY GREATEST FEAR is to fall for him, I hope not. For now we are great friends, the thing is he doesn't remind me in anyway to my best friend, he is different. We both play the drums well he plays and I am trying to play it, we both like extreme sports, we have similar views to the future and people treating others etc. It is fun to be with him. I have found an awesome friend!!! And I sure am greatful!
~miky~

Birthday!!!!

TODAY was my birthday I turned 17~ yay!!! I got calls from everyone!!! Still one person I really wanted to call didn't, but leaving that behind I had a pretty neat time, though I wanted to go out with mybest friend (ex, w/e) I miss him but I can do nothing about it!!! My friends came and visit me I had fun we got wet together (lol) Today 2 guys told me they really liked me! It was kind of a shocker, but it feels good (don't tell them) This wasn't what I expected of a birth day I really wanted to spend this important day with all of my close friends and even though I spoke to most of them, I miss his phisical presence by my side! Change is crude but it has to be done! I am so hurt with his attitudes all the lies and all the things he didn't mean to do but still went ahead and did them. I don't know what to believe anymore I just wish things wouldn't have happend they way they did! I am relieve to know his best friend is in town and can help him in everything I am dying to help him in! He is having it pretty smoothly he has his girlfriend helping him and his best friend! Hope he is doing great, even though I sometime die to call him my too much of a feminist side kicks in and stops me! I just want to leave it clear, and out of the blue, he is and will always be my best friend no matter what! He is family to me! Anyways my birth day was pretty cool, I bought myself some things for my drum set and I am planning practicing with Josue my (drum teacher)(hahaha) and Chu my new ... ( what are you thinking, he is only my new advance drum istructor). Anyways I am really want to watch Little man and I also want to see My super ex- girlfriend!!!!! If anyone has seen them please give me a quick review!!!! Thanks God is LOVE~
~miky~