Whatever!

Have you ever taken a decision so fast that you haven't thought of the consequences it brings? I am so mad at myself I feel that I "put myself too out there" I explain myself, I told and showed this guy how much I liked him and loved him. For what? I guess now, he was as fake as many people are to me, and this kills me on the inside! I guess he didn't care as much as he said he did! Everything in my life seemed so fake these last days, my "friends" where or are so not honest with me, I trully feel people talk to me to show others how nice they can be! I hate it so much feeling like I don't belong everywhere I go! I do have some real friends though! I wish and hope to show them how real I am! Few days ago I have been evaluating what to do with my friends, who's friendship I trully want and need and which I don't care about anymore! I've decided who my real friends are and who I just care not to have their friendship, the only catch is I think I am going to lose another friend because of the decision I took. Only the Lord knows what will happen, but I worry not because I know that if I do lose other friends because of this, it was God's hand in all of this. I need to change my life, I want to do so many things, but first of all I have to ask God for help only he can help me! If you have friends appreciate them!
Oh and don't expose yourself that much when nothing is true as you think, you only end up throwing away presious feelings! I thought you did love me, but to hell with it all, hope your happy!