What to expect?!?!?

I don't know what to think anymore! I am tired of doing things the right way, right now I am feeling very sad, a very deep pain in my heart, I don't want to do anything 'bout it. I totally gave up! I am moving on, it hurts but I'll get through it... Or so I hope! With the help of my friends , family and anyone else who offers his or her help I will be ok once again. I know I am strong. I hadn't cried in a long while, I am so pathetic. I just have to have character and faith that someday I will get over him and nothing else will matter anymore. So deffinitely bye Juan, please if you read this don't call and please don't try contacting me anymore, in any way... I just don't want to know 'bout you for the moment.