Isn't it hard enough?

The human being is always in a constant change. We change the way we dress, look, act, the music we hear, the way we think, and the things we believe. No matter how much the world changes (and I do mean us as well) we humans still don't get use to some types of changes. For example death, we all know we are going to die someday, but when that day come (to a family member, friend ,etc.) it is hard for us to adjust. I think that when it come to love we are basically the same way. For example I'll be using myself, I love many people ( my parents,friends,etc.), but when it comes for me to have a partner(boyfriend), when things suddenly change, their effects seem to affect me the most. I know you are all tired'cuz of da same.am just so amazed in the way I have reacted to these changes in my life. It's hard to admit but I haven't gotten over my last relationship. I had actually developed a strong sense of love and even though we are not together I still feel like he is a great part of my life. Now my love for him has changed or it has evolved. Not in a bad way, but now it is just not the same, even though I still care about him I feel so much different now. This change has made me appreciate him so much more that what I use to, but now it is just too late, and I am not expecting to go back together, but this has tought me such a very valuable lesson. I didn't take him for granted, but now becuz of him physical and spiritual absence of him in my life I feel such a deep need for him. I know I ended up making no sense but what to say I quite don't make any sense at all.