Summer Sensation!!!!

It's been a month since I've started my summer vac. and I have done plenty of things!!!
Many of them have been with important people for me and some just happened!!! I am looking foward on
spending the rest of my summer having fun with my friends and family!!!
love you all
~miky~

A little too late...

How confusing can life be? When people are in-love everything changes for them, there are no bad feelings, no doubts, no regrets!!! At least thats what people expect! Recently I was in a relationship where the doubts where always there, It didn't mean I didn't love him though...
I loved him and still do, the catch to all of this was, he had just came out of a relationship to rush in with me! I was scared all those feelings he felt for her would come back and I would wind up all alone and destroyed!!! I know I should have trusted a little more, but in my case everyone knew or thought it would happen, that's why I doubted, I didn't want to be the last to know he didn't really love me! When we broke up it was hard but not as much, now a few days have past by and all that I think is about him. I know now is just too late to go back and try to fix everything and maybe I'll have to learn to live without him, ( am I serious I have been heart broken before, but this one is a bit harder). I'll survive!!! I know I will, the only thing I regret is having that small chance and not really making it work!!! Oh well love starts love ends!!!! I still love you with all of my strengh!!! ~miky~

How to treat your girl friend!!!

Hey guys if you are reading this take note and put it in action...
Simple rules to follow;

a) Love them, and accept them for who they are. (Don't tell her you would like if she was like some other girl, it's not fun)

b) Respect her, give her some space!!!

c) Show her you love her, call her just to know how she is or just to say how much you love her!

d) Call her back!!!

e) Surprise them once in a while!!!

f) Let her know that she is everything for you!

g) NEVER, NEVER compare your girl to any other girl, especially your ex!

h) Make sure to give your girlfriend enough attention, don't give other people more attention than what you give your girlfriend.

i) Trust them, once in a while show her some special treatment, open up to her.

j) Give her some compliments!!! ( hey baby you look gorgeous tonight!) (that never hurted anyone)

k) Be honest, don't lie, much less when it is something very big that will affect both of you!!!!

l) Simply treat her like your girl friend ( your most valuable treasure).

These are some simple rules, easy to follow and will help a lot!! I gave this title to this post but it helps in both ways girls you can also treat your boyfriends the way this says! Remember people treat your other half the way you would like to be treated!!!! Love you all!!!
~miky~

Bad news!!!

Super Bad News!!!
I am extremely sick, I feel terrible!
Don't get scared its nothing serious, I just have a cold!
In the other hand, Puerto Rico's Crisis is over now!!!!
School re-starts on Monday!!! I am not that excited now, I got used to staying
up late and waking up even later, it'll be hard to start waking up at 6:00am!
I am still looking foward on seeing my friends!!!
I miss them a lot!
~miky~

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hello everyone!!!!
I am sorry I haven't written lately, its just that I haven't had any decent time to be online!!!
Summer has started, everything is going fine! I miss my friends a lot but I've seen some! Sylvia and I went this saturday to Puerto Rico High Fashion Week!!! It was cool, we saw 2 fashion shows each of different Designers ofcourse!!! We had a pretty nice time together, but even though I was happy I went to such event, I was really happy I spent some time with my best friend Sylvia!!! Yesterday I was shopping for mother's day gifts, after that I went to my other best friends house and we had an awesome time!!!! (lol) My life is really not that exciting but I've been having a NICE TIME during this "summer".
Oh I can't forget to mention I spoke to a very important person this week (Juan, ofcourse) It had been a very long time with out actually knowing anything about him!!!!
well I didn't actually speak to him!!! Thanx God 4 the internet!!!
Love you people!!!
~ MiKy~

La-la-land!!!

I have this term I use when I am in love and that term is lala-land!!! I feel all happy and out of this world and that is exactly how I feel!!! I am in-love !!!!

Love is a feeling you can't control.
I did'nt choose to fall in love with you...
it just kind of happened!!! I am so happy,
because I know you feel the same way...
I wish we could be together forever! I miss
you every second I am not with you!! I love you
honestly!!! I know you must be as excited as I am...
I need to be with you, I need to think of you, I need to see
you, talk to you and be with you!!! I deeply love you!!!
Your love I can't compare to no other!!! I wish we could be
but... only time will tell. Love you with what is left of my heart!!!
Your already a big part of me!!!!
Love you!

School is out!!!

School is over!!!! I have 3 month vacation instead of 2!!! In Puerto Rico we are all living in a crisis!!! There is no money to pay teachers or any employee who works for the government!!!
This is all a big mess I pray to God things get better!!!
Anyways, I wont get to see my friends as often as I used to thats bad for me!!!
Write l8r!!

Just another day!

Hi people!
Today wasn't an extraordinary day! I got to school feeling happy and soon enough my day turned against me. I spent today a bit mad at my friend for acting all stupid towards me, anyways today I had an oral report with my friend Sylvia we where kind of nervous (seroiusly, it was me), but it turned out fine! After that, we just waisted time talking nonesense and making fun of our friend playing pokemon!!! When the day was almost over, one of my closest friends, bursted out how sick he was/is of me and Sylvia "nagging" on him all the time, and wanting to be with him all the time! I have to admit it was a bit harsh, but thats the way he feels, later on it was too darn uncomfortable talking to him. Sylvia and I where astounded by the news but still we tried to act normal, it wasn't easy! I wanted to get up and leave and never talk to him again, but he is our friend and maybe (just maybe) he is right! Thanks God I am home no more school or friend's dilema!!! It is good to take a break from things! I am a little sad, because school is over friday, which means I am not going to get to see my friends as often!!! I'll miss them a lot though we have plans to go out on the summer hope we can actually do them! Oh well I'll write l8r, LOVE YOU ALL!!
DAISY GURL'S RULE!!!!

Take a day!!!

Hi guys!!!! Live day by day!!! And never forget that people somewhere love you just because of you!!! Love you!!!
I love ~the daisy girls~ kisses girls!!!! Oh and I am just too happy!!! God is awesome!!!! See you guys be happy and let God fil your lives... Take a day to love yourselves!!! Thinking of a spa, aren't you!!! hahaha(lol)I'll write later on!
bye!

A thing called love...

My heart is swollen...
My dreams broken...
He took me up
to bring me down...
He made me laugh,
He made me cry...
He thought he loved me,
but that was just one more
of his many confusions...
He showed me life...
But gave me death...
He offered an open door,
which he soon enough closed...
He made me belive we'd be okay,
while he always knew we wouldn't!
Why did he use me?
Why did he play those games?
Why did he make me say all the things I felt?
Why didn't I notice this?
Why was I so darn stupid?
Why did I ever let myself do such a stupid thing?
What did I get out of this, a broken heart?
Why did you do this to me?
Why didn't you think of me, my feelings?
Why, oh why did you hurt me in this way?

"LOVE is only a four letter word...if it really does mean something..then why do some people take it for granted and not mean it?..and if the word LOVE is real..then why can some people say it every other person they meet?"~taken out of an anonymous, written for a friend~
" The ironic thing is I feel the very same way"...

Losing touch...

Sitting, in a hospital, waiting to hear the doctor's news. Bitting my nails, woundering what was going on! I hear a scream, a terrorizing scream! More tension was built inside me!
Where is he, where is he I yelled at the nurse who was passing by- Calm down, she said with a firm voice! I was scared, I was anxious, I was desperate!!! I waited and waited and still no news.
Is he dead? I asked myself!
What is going on in there! I felt like running towards the door and going in to where he laid.
He is the man I love, I answered when the doctor asked for a family member. I am sorry miss you are not a relative, he exclamed! I was devastaded, I tried to persuade him until he said I could go in. When I finally get granted the wish to go see him, I waited out side, took a deep breath and softly opened the door. There he was, laying there, stiff, not moving any muscle! I stood by his side, and soon I bursted out in tears, could it be? Could he really be dead! I rapidly demanded to know. To know why he didn't love me? why he lied? why he cheated? I was furious, but no matter how strong I felt and wanted to kill him, another part of me loved him so... Not knowing what to do! I started to talk to him I told him everything I felt how much I loved him and how much I wanted him to be okay. He is in coma, replied the nurse, she told me that everything would be alright. WAIT, WHAT IS THAT!!!! Why is he jumping whats going on, is he gonna die? why was he there? What happened to him? Get out!!!- The doctor shouted, I was nervous So nervous that I couldn't move!!! The dragged me out of the room I was desperate was I going to lose him? I was so uncontrolable that they took me away...
Where was I going I couldn't see anything! All was dark, I could only hear a vague voice, that said; I love you ... It's time... Hold my hand... Be mine...
What I didn't recognize the voice whose was it! Oh no I can't breathe, I am losing my senses...
Get me out of here ! I yelled what's wrong Can't anybody hear me...

Straight ahead!!

I am in this road, I find myself wondering wich way to go...
I don't know but my life has been taking different turns in which I find myself lost!
I think I know which things are good for me and which are not, but I seem to keep bumping with the same rock in the middle of the road! I am not making any sense I know, but how else do I describe the journey my life is taking me... It is hard for me to accept that I am stuck!! It's like my life has found its' limite, the end of the road, and I can't walk anymore! I am so confused!!! It seems both ways at the end of the road are closed for me... What am I to do?
It is a dark road I walk... Sometimes I think I can see light but it is only an illusion!! I am tired and thirsty this road has gotten the best of me. No matter what I keep walking to find myself still in the same spot. I stumble and I fall, that's when I see the exit, but as soon as I get up it all fades away...

About a boy!

I know I came to you when everything is/was wrong and a mess!!!
I still know I want to be a part of you I want to be that force which sets things right...
I know I don't have super powers to change what is going on... but I want to try and make you happy. All these feeling inside burn, like crazy. I wish I could go right there where you are and love you like I use to and still do. I love you with all my heart, I know it's too late... Please don't tell me you don't love me anymore... Give me a chance to show you how much I care!
When I close my eyes the first picture I have is yours, I want to leave all behind and run away with you...
Just to feel you close for the very last time!!! I wish I could explain myself better, but if I could just look at you, you would know what my heart wants to tell you...

The roller coaster ride!!!!

Jajaja! Really pathetic of me, I haven't been anywhere yet!
I named this post the roller coaster ride, because this is actually the way I am feeling!
I feel like I am in a roller coaster, because sometimes I am up and some down, and needless to say all those turns I take! Today I am feeling neutral, there hasn't been any great impact! I am alone withmy mother, which isn't technically bad, but it's not fun! I miss going out and I wish I could go out right now! I had a desperating dream last night!!! That's why I woke up feeling funny today! Anyways I have nothing to write about so, I'll write l8r on!

Swimming in deep waters!

Hi people I am glad that today is Friday, today we start our spring break over here in Puerto Rico!!! YAY!!!
Anyways today was a so/so day! I spend most of my time with one of my greatest friends Sylvia and the rest of the time I spent with Walter a new friend of mine! I was feeling great all day long, until 1:50pm came, then I started to feel desperate and I wanted to leave, I had plans to go shoe shopping with Stephanie, but she had to cancel and that's when it hit me, I wanted to leave school right then! I had to wait till 3:00pm to leave and I was growing sick of school I just wanted to have fun and spend some time with Stephanie, but we couldn't do anything about it. She had to stay in school to help her boyfriend out in some school assigment! Today I got really moody, after missing my friend Spiderman, when he finally sat next to me and Sylvia after a while I didn't want to be by his side!!! It wasn't his fault and he did nothing to me, for me to react that way, but I felt angry and disappointed with myself! After I had "vanished" all my feelings to a certain guy... They came over me today, it came back to me! but I've learned something about this, I know how to live with them, without them taking control of me!!! Anyways I took it out on my friend, I am sorry sweety, I love you!!!! Anyways I hope this few days off help me in some way!

Another day in school!

Hi people right about now I am in school in my Chemistry class !!! Suposively working!!! lol
I am enjoying myself for now. Next to me is my best friend Sylvia and she is also "working" (jajaja)! I have so many things to do but still I am here procrastinating! I love you people! Have a nice day!
take care talk 2 you later!

A horrible day!

Today was a fine day until a friend of mine was hurting!
Problems take control of our lives! Which I find that it is unfair!
Can we live without any emotions? Why is it so hard for us human beings to deal with our emotions? I know it can be hard, I've been through hard time in which I hav thought I was going to die, but still I've made it through! Is it harder on other people? What is there to do?
I know I don't know everything, much less I understand everything, I just wish us people wouldn't make such a big deal out of our emotions! I speak for myself and only of myself! I wish I had the power to stop the hurting in this world... I know it is just a dream, but it sound pretty nice! Feelings aren't everything in this world and believe it or not everyone will get over all the suffering, someday... Look at the positive things God sends us, and you will survive!

I... can ... breath...again!

I made it, I made it, I made it!!!! that's what I said.
I have walked so much and fought so hard to get where I am...
I have reached the top of the mountain!!!
That is what I though, I take myself back to these last days, where I have cried, laugh and yelled. And it all seems worth it! I know it sounds weird but I finally got where I wanted to be, on top! I know life gives you situations, but I am glad I can say I MADE IT THROUGH!
------------------------------------WAIT---------------------------------------------
What if it's a ilusion? what if I am not really there? What if this is the way my mind uses to make a fool out of me?Can I be a houndred percent certain of this? I surely can not! I wish I had fallen a sleep and woken up to a new and bright morning... Is it too much to ask?

That's an abstract of something I wrote!
* When life gives you lemons, make a lemonade!*

A new point of view!

Yesterday I was feeling very bad (emotionaly), but I decided I was going to church anyways!
I got there and I felt the same, but when the preacher began his sermon I felt God's precense in my life. I decided to ask God to forgive me and start living my life how he wants me to! I think that's the best decision I have ever taken! Now all I feel is joy, no more sadness, no more depresion, just happyness and joy! I love God so much! He is the best an he is always there when you need him, 24/7! God bless you all!

Half of you!

It is funny how quickly you forget!
It is so ironic, how fast you can't remember what you felt for me...
You know what, I knew this was going to happen!
I just didn't think it would be that simple for you to take me off your mind!
All those words you once told me are revolving in my head!
To think you never cared as much as I did.
I start to think, what if you always lied, what if you never felt the way you said you did,
what if you where making everything up and making me believe you felt something for me...
I feel so stupid and most of all so worthless!
I felt for your stupid act!
Aww, I get so mad for being so blind!
Why did you have to play this games, if you never wanted anything else?
How come you showed me one side I loved and then you used me to get what you really wanted (u know ur girl).
I feel so low, loving you so much and you don't give a damn!
I hope your happy!!! I just can't be how I used to be with you, I know you already forgot about me but I still care about you, even though you don't care anymore!
I really hope all of your dreams come true with her, but I can't be your friend (as much), because I don't want just half of you!