Too young to...

Tonight I find myself laying on top of my bed trying to fall a sleep. As I lie on my bed I open my eyes and stare at my roof, as my mind flies to my deepest thoughts... I start to think and think and think some more! I ask myself the reason of my sleepless night. I can't seem to find the answer to my question, rather I find myself asking myself other questions! Was I too young to do certain things in my life? Was I too young to fall in love? Now a days I find myself with a certain degree of lack of commitment! I can't seem to get my feelings straight! I know I am not in love with anyone right about now, but there is some attraction to a younger guy! He is great and as always good guys are either gay, married or committed! This guy is taken! He has girlfriend. Leaving that a side, I couldn't get some sleep! It was hard to get my mind of him or anyone for that matter! It was almost impossible to get some rest I had to go through many things to get to sleep! I finally went to sleep after all of those inconveniences I got to sleep for a while, now there is only that doubt. Am I or am I not to young to...

Can it be?

Life is a box full of surprises! Surprises can either be good or bad. Tonight I am here asking myself : What kind of surprises does life hold in for me? I am going through a stage in life where I question myself what does every little thing mean. I have found myself questioning my decisions, many of them. Can it be that finding a person that respects me isn't what I wanted? I mean no one has actually disrespected me to my face, but with action you also disrespect people. I have found someone who really cares about me and would give the world to see and make me happy, but I find myself doubting over wether not I want this for my life. My last boyfriend and I ended pretty bad to the extend that we barely speak to each other! The thing was I found out many things about him that I didn't want to believe but did anyhow! Now he and I can't even consider ourselves to be good friends because that trust I once deposit over him is long gone! Still I find myself missing that whole drama and heart-ache. Is it that I trully want to be with him? I know that I don't want to be with him. I found someone who appreciates me and wouldn't hurt me, but I am still not content! What could it be? Have I not learn to respect myself and that's why I don't quite get use to it coming from another human being? Is it that past relationships have made me who I am? I have this concern in my life I wish to calm. Even though I found this special someone I am not in love, could it be that I am afraid to love once more? So many question are born in my head and I just can't answer! As I started saying : "Life is a box full of surprises " I just wish to appreciae more the blessing that I have than to lose a great person like that. I know I won't get to be with him because I've made a decision and I am not planning on backing out. Have we lost our self-respect? Have we lost who we are? Have we traded our morals and believes? Have we hurt ourselves? I soon wish to see... the answer to all of this.

School started!

Wow big news... School started!
School was pretty fun today, wellif you took away the hotness! It was awfully hot today and a matter of fact it is going to be like that for a long time! Snap! Anyways I got to see all well most of my friends that was very fun! I got to see my classmates and my other friends that graduated already. I am happy with what I lived today in school which school would be better!
Well I'll write later cuz I am tired!

Awesome night!

Ohhh I am so glad I went to church last night! My church was invited to this other church in Dorado, a friend of mine invited us. The preacher was really inspired and touched by the Holy Ghost! The verse he used for the sermon was the following: Romans 12:11-12. That night was full of blessings! God is awesome! I just love him so much, he is the love of my life, my Savior, my steady rock, he is never late, he is always there when there is no one to turn to. He is simply amayzing!!!! God is love!
~miky~

I know that I know nothing at all!

Hi!!!! Today I got some really good news! I am getting a job interview pretty soon!!! I might get a job!!! yay!! Anyhow I haven't heard anything from anyone! Yeyo is leaving tomorrow and today is his go away party!!! The only bad thing is I can't go because Stephanie can't go!!! One thing I know for sure is that they are planning on coming over to my house to say goodbye! Isn't goodbye such an ugly word???? I rather say "SEE YOU LATER!!!" It sounds prettier and it gives me hope! Very little days are missing ti'll school starts! I am going to see all of my classmates and all the new classmates I am going to have this year! It's is exciting but at the same time nerve-racking! Hopefully I'll be able to handle school and a job at the same time! God is LOVE!!!!
~miky~

School is starting pretty soon

Hello it is the 7th of August and I haven't done much.
As I once wrote I had to participate in a competition this past Saturday, news flash I WON FIRST PLACE!!!! yay!!! In other news school starts this Monday! I am gonna see all of my friends and get to spend my last year with people I care about. I am looking foward to making new friends and keeping my old ones! I really hope to get good grades again so I can be in the principles honor roll! That's kindda my goal! I am so very happy with the way my life is going right now! I am happy most of the time! Not having to worry about kiddie problems etc. My dad came back from France this past Saturday he couldn't make it to my competitions but he made it in just in time for my gift (lol) I got some pretty nice earings from France!!!! Yay! I miss some people alot, yesterday I didn't hear about Chu or Rafa or anyone for that matter! I couldn't sleep that well yesterday and I just kept staring at my celphone expecting some sort off call but it wasn't from just anyone, it was from someone who mean a way lot to me and even though I knew it wasn't gonna happen deep down I wanted that person to call. As I said that person didn't call but whatever I am still living and breathing. Soon enough life is gonna start getting hectic with all the school work and friend drama! Hope it's not as I think it's gonna be! Anyways I am a whole mess writting this so I'll write later on! bye
~miky~

Today was such a good day!!! My cousins are staying with me this week and today we went shopping and I saw Chu and Yeyo!!! We bought stuff and went to see My super Ex-girlfriend it's hott you've got 2 see it! Anyhow we ended our day eating at Johny Rockets it was good though the service was medeocre! Anyhow now I am leaving or church! A little desappointed because I have these competitions on Saturday and I haven't had time to practice yet!~ Wtite back l8r

Serious Talk.

Yesterday was a nice day for me, I finished buying my school material and at night I went to church with Chu! Afterwards we went to catch a bite at Mc Donalds, there we found another friend of ours, Irvin, it was cool! I need to seriously talk to one of my friends! I am so worried! Till then what the heck can I do?????
~miky~

The way he treats me!!!

I feel like a princess!!!! Maybe better... He treats me as if I was the prettiest girl in the universe, he makes me feel good about myself. He brings the best out of me!! He has been of great support to me these days. He is so fun and easy going, great to hang out with and to have a serious conversation with! He is a new friend of mine! He is not like every other friend I have or had, he doesn't look alike and he sure doesn't treat me like them either, not that I haven't had friends who treat me right but he has been so nice, sweet and I don't know but we have so much in common! Of course we also have differences but we enjoy similar things! I am happy I found this new friend, MY GREATEST FEAR is to fall for him, I hope not. For now we are great friends, the thing is he doesn't remind me in anyway to my best friend, he is different. We both play the drums well he plays and I am trying to play it, we both like extreme sports, we have similar views to the future and people treating others etc. It is fun to be with him. I have found an awesome friend!!! And I sure am greatful!
~miky~

Birthday!!!!

TODAY was my birthday I turned 17~ yay!!! I got calls from everyone!!! Still one person I really wanted to call didn't, but leaving that behind I had a pretty neat time, though I wanted to go out with mybest friend (ex, w/e) I miss him but I can do nothing about it!!! My friends came and visit me I had fun we got wet together (lol) Today 2 guys told me they really liked me! It was kind of a shocker, but it feels good (don't tell them) This wasn't what I expected of a birth day I really wanted to spend this important day with all of my close friends and even though I spoke to most of them, I miss his phisical presence by my side! Change is crude but it has to be done! I am so hurt with his attitudes all the lies and all the things he didn't mean to do but still went ahead and did them. I don't know what to believe anymore I just wish things wouldn't have happend they way they did! I am relieve to know his best friend is in town and can help him in everything I am dying to help him in! He is having it pretty smoothly he has his girlfriend helping him and his best friend! Hope he is doing great, even though I sometime die to call him my too much of a feminist side kicks in and stops me! I just want to leave it clear, and out of the blue, he is and will always be my best friend no matter what! He is family to me! Anyways my birth day was pretty cool, I bought myself some things for my drum set and I am planning practicing with Josue my (drum teacher)(hahaha) and Chu my new ... ( what are you thinking, he is only my new advance drum istructor). Anyways I am really want to watch Little man and I also want to see My super ex- girlfriend!!!!! If anyone has seen them please give me a quick review!!!! Thanks God is LOVE~
~miky~

A spot of light!

Last night was a little rough on me! After spending a pretty decent time with my family( cousins, sibbling and parents) I came back home! Oh well we made a stop at church 'cause you know spiritual things come first! Anyhow I came back home to find myself in a whole bunch of trouble, someone started a nasty rumor about me and some other guys and it got to the ears of those guys and we were all asking ourselves how in the world could our lives get so screwed in such a short period of time???? Anyhow the guys told me to stay cool that they would fix it!!! And I think they did! Well at least one of them!!! My "boyfriend"(lol) as every other person knows him now, but thats over with thank goodness!!! Yesterday I got some weird txt messeges from people I've never expected to get them from but never the less I am just taking some time for myself, tired of being involve in so much drama!!!!! Now I have a few selected friends who I talk 2! Some changes had to be done! Hope they are the correct ones! Anyways thanx for being my blank sheet of paper!!! I love writting! bye laters every one!
~miky~

Friend are like bitches!!!!

Friends change for the stupidest things!!!! Like their Girlfriends!!!! My best friend has changed and his girlfriend is messing with his mind and putting him against me. I am not gonna fight for this for our friendship!!! Now I really don't wanna know anything about him! Screw friends!!! Friends like that though!!! Anyways Forget my bitterness but thats what I feel!
~miky~

Am back

Howdy everyone I am back and really hope it's for a long time but lately I've been a little occupied and haven't had enough time to post anything!
Love you all!! post later!
~miky~

Kiss me...

Do you know what's the real meaning of a kiss?

I must be the most fruitiest person in the whole universe, because I consider a kiss,
the highest expression of love! Why, you may ask? When I kiss someone, that
kiss is full of feelings and emotions , I put my heart in it!!! That's the
chance for me to connect on a higher level with someone I love... I might be
the only person who values the real significance of a kiss, but that makes me
unique!!! I can't just kiss anyone, because when I kiss someone, I am giving them
a little bit of me!!! I am all out there when I share that special gesture with
that special person!!! Kissing is awesome, but people don't throw them around as if
they were nothing, they can speak louder than words if you know how to use them...

Wishing you where here...

It's been almost a month since the BIG BREAK!
3 more days and it would have been a month!! Sad but true!
I MISS you so very much, but sometime I get the feeling that
I have already forgotten you! It's sad to know we will never get
back that opportunity to make it work! Now I just watch a head and
wonder what would have been, but not with sadness in my eyes but hope...
God giveth, God taketh away!!! Maybe someday oh wait that's too late...

Summer Sensation!!!!

It's been a month since I've started my summer vac. and I have done plenty of things!!!
Many of them have been with important people for me and some just happened!!! I am looking foward on
spending the rest of my summer having fun with my friends and family!!!
love you all
~miky~

A little too late...

How confusing can life be? When people are in-love everything changes for them, there are no bad feelings, no doubts, no regrets!!! At least thats what people expect! Recently I was in a relationship where the doubts where always there, It didn't mean I didn't love him though...
I loved him and still do, the catch to all of this was, he had just came out of a relationship to rush in with me! I was scared all those feelings he felt for her would come back and I would wind up all alone and destroyed!!! I know I should have trusted a little more, but in my case everyone knew or thought it would happen, that's why I doubted, I didn't want to be the last to know he didn't really love me! When we broke up it was hard but not as much, now a few days have past by and all that I think is about him. I know now is just too late to go back and try to fix everything and maybe I'll have to learn to live without him, ( am I serious I have been heart broken before, but this one is a bit harder). I'll survive!!! I know I will, the only thing I regret is having that small chance and not really making it work!!! Oh well love starts love ends!!!! I still love you with all of my strengh!!! ~miky~

How to treat your girl friend!!!

Hey guys if you are reading this take note and put it in action...
Simple rules to follow;

a) Love them, and accept them for who they are. (Don't tell her you would like if she was like some other girl, it's not fun)

b) Respect her, give her some space!!!

c) Show her you love her, call her just to know how she is or just to say how much you love her!

d) Call her back!!!

e) Surprise them once in a while!!!

f) Let her know that she is everything for you!

g) NEVER, NEVER compare your girl to any other girl, especially your ex!

h) Make sure to give your girlfriend enough attention, don't give other people more attention than what you give your girlfriend.

i) Trust them, once in a while show her some special treatment, open up to her.

j) Give her some compliments!!! ( hey baby you look gorgeous tonight!) (that never hurted anyone)

k) Be honest, don't lie, much less when it is something very big that will affect both of you!!!!

l) Simply treat her like your girl friend ( your most valuable treasure).

These are some simple rules, easy to follow and will help a lot!! I gave this title to this post but it helps in both ways girls you can also treat your boyfriends the way this says! Remember people treat your other half the way you would like to be treated!!!! Love you all!!!
~miky~

Bad news!!!

Super Bad News!!!
I am extremely sick, I feel terrible!
Don't get scared its nothing serious, I just have a cold!
In the other hand, Puerto Rico's Crisis is over now!!!!
School re-starts on Monday!!! I am not that excited now, I got used to staying
up late and waking up even later, it'll be hard to start waking up at 6:00am!
I am still looking foward on seeing my friends!!!
I miss them a lot!
~miky~

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hello everyone!!!!
I am sorry I haven't written lately, its just that I haven't had any decent time to be online!!!
Summer has started, everything is going fine! I miss my friends a lot but I've seen some! Sylvia and I went this saturday to Puerto Rico High Fashion Week!!! It was cool, we saw 2 fashion shows each of different Designers ofcourse!!! We had a pretty nice time together, but even though I was happy I went to such event, I was really happy I spent some time with my best friend Sylvia!!! Yesterday I was shopping for mother's day gifts, after that I went to my other best friends house and we had an awesome time!!!! (lol) My life is really not that exciting but I've been having a NICE TIME during this "summer".
Oh I can't forget to mention I spoke to a very important person this week (Juan, ofcourse) It had been a very long time with out actually knowing anything about him!!!!
well I didn't actually speak to him!!! Thanx God 4 the internet!!!
Love you people!!!
~ MiKy~